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whats done, is done

its been a while. well then...
she finally made her decision. hadn't hit me til a couple weeks later. or maybe i just pretended that what had happened, didnt just happen. "wait, it'll all blow over, then it'll be all good like before"- my thoughts. when i got word- not really anything, i didn't know how to respond to it. a mexican stand down and pride was my enemy. i zone out every time i think about it. chest beats fast then slow. i debate it everynight. constantly going back and forth. "get out, do something" and, "don't do it man". i'm not the one to do anything stupid. but what am i to do? call up doctor hitch? alcohol seems to tame my confusion, temporarily. i don't show it though. i'm always calm. at least thats what i display. but, it slowly reveals. "signs arent hard to miss" my buddy tells me. "i'm straight dude. it ain't sh*t, easy fix". no, this fix is way beyond repair. either stick to it and get nothing or, find something new.
i figured i'd post this than to keep it

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Permalink Reply by Tearsz on November 24, 2011 at 5:19pm

Hope you feel better venting!!!

Write, Write On!!!

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Permalink Reply by Sole Atuatasi on November 28, 2011 at 2:55pm

thanks

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Permalink Reply by JJW on November 28, 2011 at 12:11am

Aww its good that you let it out instead of letting it build up inside..life is all about changes, every day and every moment we live in wavelengths and frequency of emotions..:P every changes and modification made and every actions we take are symbols of what is taking place or expected of tomorrow, So just read the signs and take appropriate actions that will lesson the pain instead of temporary relieve that might end in a life time of grief..:P

Just adding to it..